I'm always there, It's always elsewhere
So today ended well in a weird kinda way...
I felt really guilty afterwards, And i thought i refused to feel any guilt in this whole mess
So i'm like sitting here on the curb of the side walk
Just ran four miles maybe five
my heart is racing
and for once its not because i'm out of shape
I want to go to sleep i do
But i'm afraid that i might miss something
Today ended in the best way it could have
It could have never ended the way i wanted to
Because then for once
It would go the way i wanted
It was still very good though
My chest stings as the autumn air runs through my lungs
I can't do this I'm thinking
I can't do this to that poor girl
Then i remember I already did
It's all over
My utter lack of a moral code is going to get me killed
Its only a matter of when
My mind and my heart are racing
I can understand how people get confused
and become duelists
I am a monist though
I could never think them as one
My mind and my heart are racing
against each-other
And for some reason i desperately want my heart to win
But my mind is right
this is wrong
I don't care
"Lets tear this fucking place apart"
I just can't wait for this forsaken part to be over
It won't bother me which way my life goes
Just pick one for christs sake
"Lets tear our fucking bodies apart"
I can't be patti smith and audrey hepburn
"Lets just have some fun"
Today was magical in a way most nights could never be
Tonight kicked some ass
even though nothing good came from any of it
And yes this time i am nostalgic towards you, sir
I feel a little strange
Im going inside now
maybe lying down will help this madness
I wish i drank.....
26 Sept 2008 2:46
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